There's a strange sentiment that seems to be echoed by many creatives out there - the unique feeling of stumbling and failing forward. I can't be the only writer or creator out there who feels like their career is almost nothing more than a series of small failures that slowly build up to an actual set of successes.
The public face of creators is always the successes. No one cares about the failures that happen behind the scenes, they only care about the successes.
Without those communities that we build for ourselves, it is hard to see what is going on with other people. It is hard to know "oh, this isn't too bad at all."
There's the danger here too - trying to compare yourself to others. It isn't too hard for you to look at someone else and see what they've done by the time they're 25 or whatever, then despair. All the awards you haven't won, the residences you've been denied, and so on.
The system is largely based around those continued failures, those continued attempts to persevere despite everything else. That's just the way that it is. You keep pushing, stumbling, and trying to figure out what is going to work.
So, here's what I have to say to you. If you're failing, if you're struggling and stumbling forward, just keep doing it. Keep struggling, keep fighting, keep learning. That's your job. That's what you have to do.
Keep at it.